Visions of vibration

My name is Bani Bal and I would like to share my experiences since being initiated into Samarpan Meditation by a friend whilst I was in Mumbai on March 2nd 2005.

The following day, at 7 o'clock in the morning, I sat on the floor of my Mumbai apartment alone to start my meditation as taught to me the previous afternoon. Placing Baba's photograph on a low table and lighting an oil lamp, I looked, folding my palm to the picture, and I saw the two feet of Baba moving out of the picture as if walking towards me! I was a bit perplexed; with eyes widened I again looked to see what I just saw, was it something to do with my eyes or some wind to cause this movement. Sure enough the second time the same thing happened; and the third time. I then started to meditate.

For years I have done my prayers in front of my statue of Saraswati, and when I did I would feel the vibrations in my body and with closed eyes I always saw a yellowish green light on my agnya (brow) chakra. But in this Samarpan meditation energy started moving upward in a circular motion inside of my body, which was certainly different. And moving in front of my eyes a soothing light of green, blue and purple colours danced one after another. It felt as though a very thin transparent veil was dancing on my closed eyes and forehead.

The next day more or less the same thing happened but I still cannot understand why my room smelt of rose petal. I had no fresh flower at home even to offer at Baba's feet.

Then when I went to Juhu centre for the first time to meet all the sadhaks at meditation, all seated in front of a huge picture of Baba, as all closed their eyes, I looked everywhere feeling a bit out of place, and also not being there whole heartedly maybe my ego was bothering me.

I felt ashamed as everyone had closed their eyes and here I am looking at everybody for no reason. Then I controlled myself and turned my eyes to Baba's picture, I could not believe what I saw. I clearly saw in the picture the halo of Baba was spinning at a great speed. I looked again at the window to see if the reflection of morning light playing the trick. The window was wide open but there were no suns rays coming through it. To convince myself, I did the same two or three times. The result was same. I was not meditating at all while the rest were deep in meditation.

I will relate another incident that happened here in my St. John's, Newfoundland house in Canada, when I returned here after 6months. Two men, my seventy-year-old husband and my 22-year-old son had changed the geography of the home and mess was all over and it took me some time to rearrange the kitchen, bathroom etc. So I was tired and could not meditate for 3-4 days.

Finally one night lying in bed awake late in the night (still my biological clock in Indian time), my husband in sound sleep, I was praying to Baba now what should my son pursue for his further studies, Baba I am so worried. Slowly deep in thought, I opened my eyes and what a sight I had then, I cannot describe. I saw the whole bedroom ceiling had become a star-studded sky, and only one star blinking. I was flabbergasted!

So I looked outside my window and it was just dark but when I look up in the ceiling again I saw the stars. To reassure myself I kept closing my eyes and opening them to see what I see. I didn't know how to interpret this for I was worried for my son's future as is every other mother. But the sky made me so peaceful. With a pleasant feeling I went sleep.

Bani Bal, Newfoundland, Canada